This is for you to remember everything that has happened, for you not to forget anymore. You're alone in this world, don't deny it. You have to accept it because we both know that no one will ever be there for you. I'm not sad, you are not sad, it's just the truth. So don't get fooled by the words, the smiles or any of their tricks because you'll end up regretting it. You'll just sit there, just like me now, wondering why it happened. Why did your friend choose someone else, why do they never listen? Nothing changes, you meet each other and get along. Then you start hanging out and do the stuff you like together. You think that you finally found someone good, someone you can be yourself with. You think that person will listen to you, your thoughts, your troubles. But no, that's not going to happen. You're never going to be able to tell someone how you are. If you feel bad, you don't cry because you don't have anyone but then the tears flow without your consent. They flow and flow and flow, it becomes sickening. You try to socialize but it never works, you victimize yourself but where does that get you?

How come you feel bad, I thought you didn't care. At least that's what you always say. Why do you feel like this?

You're probably reading this on a night like this one. Your parents argued, didn't they? You can't study? You're messaging people like nothing is wrong but everything is. Do you feel alone? Are you listening to music in your room? Are you wondering why he doesn't know? It's because he like everyone else doesn't know how much you are hurting. Everyone is too far, they are busy, they aren't with you.

Don't feel this way. Stop, please just stop! 

Broken inside, I get what they mean by that. I wish someone could heal me but I know now that it's not going to happen. You still care about people, don't you? You never change and that's your problem. 

Stop crying , okay?